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I’m still depressed, but how depressed I am varies, which is good.
Much of the time, it’s a comfortable numbness
that just makes things feel muted.
Other times, I’m standing in the shower or something
and I can feel the nothingness hurtling toward me
at eight thousand miles per hour
and there’s nothing I can really do aside from
let it happen and wait until it goes away again.
—
Allie Brosh, Hyperbole and a Half
Allie Brosh, Hyperbole and a Half
Music!
What band has made the biggest impact in your life, and why?
This is a tough question, but I'd say blink-182 or My Chemical Romance. blink got me into poppunk, which bridged the way to punk-a genre that has impacted my life greatly. MCR is just that band that you get into and never stop loving. The hiatus was terrible, but I understand that after so many years, individually, the members needed to move on from MCR. A lot of the songs I could relate to, which I think is why a lot of people say one band or another struck them so hard. For me, I got into them when I was younger, 14 or 15, and just starting high school. I was alone, I was miserable. I struggled with many issues and this band seemed to pour out similar emotions. It helped. McFly as well. I've been a fan since day one, or around there-I got into them, again at 14, when 5 Colours in her Hair was being aired on every music video channel. I fell hard for their quirky poppy lyrics but found so much more. 5 Colours doesn't make you think 'serious band' but this band truly is capable. Again, so many songs I could relate to. Just a great band, still sticking with them, forever not getting over hhow grown up they are now (and the fact that Dougie pretty much grew up with the band and the boys).
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What band has made the biggest impact in your life, and why?
This is a tough question, but I'd say blink-182 or My Chemical Romance. blink got me into poppunk, which bridged the way to punk-a genre that has impacted my life greatly. MCR is just that band that you get into and never stop loving. The hiatus was terrible, but I understand that after so many years, individually, the members needed to move on from MCR. A lot of the songs I could relate to, which I think is why a lot of people say one band or another struck them so hard. For me, I got into them when I was younger, 14 or 15, and just starting high school. I was alone, I was miserable. I struggled with many issues and this band seemed to pour out similar emotions. It helped. McFly as well. I've been a fan since day one, or around there-I got into them, again at 14, when 5 Colours in her Hair was being aired on every music video channel. I fell hard for their quirky poppy lyrics but found so much more. 5 Colours doesn't make you think 'serious band' but this band truly is capable. Again, so many songs I could relate to. Just a great band, still sticking with them, forever not getting over hhow grown up they are now (and the fact that Dougie pretty much grew up with the band and the boys).
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the depression was back, full throttle at times but still controllable.
it was just back and this underlying lingering presence.
that strange crackling noise you hear when walking through the streets at night but every time you look there's nothing there.
but then you let your guard down one night because you think "ha, it's just nothing, silly, remember?"
and then there's this shadow looming over you as you stoop down to tie your shoelaces
but before you can turn to look or utter a word the shadow dances and grows
and suddenly there's this overwhelming numbing pain with blackness infringing on the edges threatening to pull you under.
you regret letting your guard down now because you were right to be a paranoid bastard
and you should never have let yourself be less cautious when you were so sure that something bad was coming.
too fucking late.
the shadow is completely covering you now and painpainpain is everywhere.
and when it ends you just feel so empty and tired and angry and stupid and and and.
you spend the next four days two weeks lying in bed feeling absolutely nothing and everything all at once.
the darkness won and you lost.
life goes on but you can't find the energy inside to get up and move along with it.
it was just back and this underlying lingering presence.
that strange crackling noise you hear when walking through the streets at night but every time you look there's nothing there.
but then you let your guard down one night because you think "ha, it's just nothing, silly, remember?"
and then there's this shadow looming over you as you stoop down to tie your shoelaces
but before you can turn to look or utter a word the shadow dances and grows
and suddenly there's this overwhelming numbing pain with blackness infringing on the edges threatening to pull you under.
you regret letting your guard down now because you were right to be a paranoid bastard
and you should never have let yourself be less cautious when you were so sure that something bad was coming.
too fucking late.
the shadow is completely covering you now and painpainpain is everywhere.
and when it ends you just feel so empty and tired and angry and stupid and and and.
you spend the next four days two weeks lying in bed feeling absolutely nothing and everything all at once.
the darkness won and you lost.
life goes on but you can't find the energy inside to get up and move along with it.
i think that i might be falling again
it's like my mind has gone into overdrive
spiraling out of control and bringing my body down with it
i can't feel or think or sleep or eat
(i try to but i just can't and it hurts)
i feel tired and sick sick and tired
i just want to curl up and sleep forever
(except you really can't because at some point you need to
wake up wake up wake up
but i'd really rather not)
or at least until this awful empty nothing decides to vacate my mind
(it never really does it's always there
it's bright neon flashing alert or
it's black hidden silent invisible)
it's like my mind has gone into overdrive
spiraling out of control and bringing my body down with it
i can't feel or think or sleep or eat
(i try to but i just can't and it hurts)
i feel tired and sick sick and tired
i just want to curl up and sleep forever
(except you really can't because at some point you need to
wake up wake up wake up
but i'd really rather not)
or at least until this awful empty nothing decides to vacate my mind
(it never really does it's always there
it's bright neon flashing alert or
it's black hidden silent invisible)
water broken voice saturates a microphone
into a receiver with no tongue
offering little to what it knows
then a silence so heavy
broken hearts fall from throats
when heaven is remembered but never seen
through hearts shaped like kaleidoscopes
eternally the sun has set to mourning
and contoured are the backgrounds
on the canvas to which our lives are painted
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i hear voices when no one's around
silent voices that no one can see
i hear voices that don't make a sound
they crawl in my face and won't leave me alone
feels so nice and hopeless
and i can see you coming
from the edge of the room
smiling in the streetlight
even with my eyes shut tight
i still see you coming now
silhouettes In the entrance
of your faded yellow hallway
from the light of the street lamp on your corner
and in time oh the hours and the minutes
but lately as the seconds stare and all the years
like last night they are not like tremors
they are worse than tremors
they are these terrors and it's like
it feels like as if somebody
was gripping my throat and squeezing and
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