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cowardsandheroes ten random facts about you meme
- I still have a night light, and yes, I use it. (And some nights it just doesn't seem bright enough). It's mainly because yes, the dark scares the piss out of me. Pitch blackness, where you can see nothing-not even your hand in front of your face-terrifies me. I've also had/have horrible experience with insomnia, sleep paralysis, and nightmares. Being up in the middle of the night sucks-and if it's because of the latter two and you're awakening to pitch black, the experience is worse. Especially with sleep paralysis because you can't move or scream out or anything. Just lie there and stare into nothingness-staring into dark nothingness is fucking terrifying and worsens the experience. (And sometimes I'm so sleep derived I imagine things, and, well, more terrifying in pitch black-do you see a pattern?).
- My nana (grandmother) passed away when I was ten. She had Alzheimer's and was moved from hospital to hospital because of it. (I hate being in hospitals because of this, now). Unfortunately, there was no cure and she passed away after struggling with it for years. My papa (grandfather) had heart problems and two years after he passed away. :/
- When I was five I was told I would no longer be allowed to see my father. The reason was vague, something along the lines of his boss saying he wasn't allowed to see me anymore. I think it's bullshit now, especially after reading certain things...still, I grew up always waiting for him to show up or call. (Which sucks.)
- I love animals. I had roughly ten or so hamsters growing up-not all at once, ha. One after the other...because they kept dying. Yeah, so, I loved hamsters a lot? I've always wanted a cat, though. Have had (currently still have one) wonderful dogs, though:D
- I need two separate pairs of glasses. One for distance, one for reading. Medication I take mucks up my vision slightly, as well as having different sight in both eyes + a lazy eye. (Putting the reading prism in the distance did not work, sadly, so bifocals are out).
- I love reading. Always have. In kindergarten I navigated towards the bookshelves firsthand and since have had a large fondness for reading. Growing up, I could always read above my level-as a kid, that's the coolest, ya know?-and would read just about anything I could get my hands on.
- Speaking of kindergarten, I skipped my first day, haha. Cried, ran back to my mom, and went home :P I DID NOT WANT.
- I have to take iron pills daily for low iron anemia. In part caused by becoming a vegetarian. But what most people don't know is that I also had horrid self esteem in high school and although I wasn't fully anorexic/bulimic, I had times often where I wouldn't eat-for days, usually-as well as periods where I threw up what I ate. I thankfully got over it, but I still have a horrible eating schedule + vegetarian so I don't eat enough in a day to get my iron intake.
- I am terrified of small spaces. I'm okay in enclosed rooms ONLY if I can see the door always. I have a pretty good idea why I'm so claustrophobic but that's a secret...Worst experience was my dumbass best friend deciding it would be cool to grab me by hood, wrap it around my head, and drag me to our other friend's closet and lock me in it...I had a panic attack and kicked the door of its hinges. That part is funny, now, especially when you consider my friends when I did that-I'm the smallest of them, usually very quiet/shy, nonviolent...so the looks on their faces=priceless.
- I was diagnosed with depression back in December, and I'm still struggling/trying to find the right medication/dosage to help it. I struggled with it badly all throughout high school (but thought it was just teen angst), and the doctor thinks it's possible it started when I was roughly 5-7 years old. It's horrible to deal with, but I'm at that point where I want to help myself and get better. Throughout high school I was at a really low point and just didn't care half the time. (It getting too worse, however, is what got me help, because my mom just...after years of this, realized there was something horribly wrong and told me to talk to the doctor. And that final push is exactly what I needed.)
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Date: 2013-07-08 09:13 am (UTC)Speaking of kindergarten, I skipped my first day, haha. Cried, ran back to my mom, and went home :P I DID NOT WANT.
Ha ha! That's so adorable. And awesome. You knew what you wanted and it wasn't that!
I've also always loved reading. I've never understood people who don't!
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Date: 2013-07-10 04:25 am (UTC)Haha, nope. I really just...didn't like being near the other kids. (And when I did go, it was a beeline to the books :P
Me neither!